Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Loss

We knew it was coming.

We were all hoping and praying for a miracle.

It was not meant to be...

Last week, The Mr.'s mom passed away after a valiant battle with pancreatic cancer.

It's an ugly disease.
Ruthless.
It shows no mercy.

I regret never sharing certain things...

I'm not sure if I expressed the depths of my thanks for her son. He holds my heart and I credit her with his strength.

She always let me be me. We had differing tastes and styles, but not once did she try to change me.

I have no doubt that she loved our little family. She respected our traditions and never imposed her desires over ours.

She was a cheerleader for us all. There was never a time that she wasn't in our corner.

I am sure that she didn't realize how much she was loved.
How much she is loved, still.

My husband will miss her.

My children will miss her.

And I will miss her.

27 Responses:

Brooke said...

I am terribly sorry for your family's loss. She sounds like a great person and a fabulous mother-in-law.

Elizabeth said...

My sincere condolences to your family.

sarah nicole said...

I'm so sorry, Dani! I am thinking of you and your family and sending love your way.

xo,

Sarah

mel @ the larson lingo said...

So sorry for your loss. Thinking & praying for you and your family.

Eliza Jane said...

Oh Dani, I am so, so sorry for your loss. My condolences to all involved!

Tammie said...

im so sorry dani. youve been in my thoughts. hugs to you and your family.

Visty said...

Oh, Dani, your love for ALL of your family is so apparent on this blog, that I can't imagine anyone who is in your life would have any doubt at all. I believe you express your feelings to those you love with just as much depth and honesty as you bring to us here. I am sorry for you and your family.

erin - mutterings of eringirl said...

When it comes to this stuff, I suck at words but I am great with hugs. I love you, friend.

Brandon - Daddy Dialogues said...

Beautifully written. It makes my heart so sad for you and your family.

~ The Jolly Bee ~ said...

Pancreatic cancer is very cruel. My mister's mom died of the same thing. You hardly get used to the idea of it and it's over. My condolences to you and your family.

{Amy} said...

dani- i have been wondering about you and missing you and i am so sorry to hear this. i had a very close uncle die from pancreatic cancer about five years ago and it is an ugly, ugly disease. thoughts and prayers to you and your family, so very sorry.

Nicolle said...

Dani, I am deeply saddened by this news. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I always wish I had some great words to say to someone when there is a loss, but I don't. I am crying with you and lifting your family up in prayer. I know how amazingly hard it is, and just know that you have a lot of love and support and caring coming your way. You are one of my favorite people out there in blog land, and I wish all the best for you and your sweet family!

Kim said...

Oh.dear.Lord. I am sitting here in tears. Having just gone through the exact same thing with my dad. Same cancer. I know what it's like. So fast and furious. I can only imagine the shell shock you've all been through. I wish you all peace and strength. Your MIL sounds like an amazing woman. I'm sure she was just as grateful for you.

BIG TIGHT HUGS!

kristin said...

oh, what a tender time. strength to you.

Daphne said...

I'm so sorry, Dani. Thinking of you and your family.

mandy said...

a blog comment is not enough.
i wish i could give you a real hug, a real shoulder, bring you a real warm meal.
i'll tuck thoughts of you and your beautiful family into my heart today.
sending you prayers of strength and grace as your family goes through this difficult time.

erin said...

Dani, I'm so sorry, I'm at a loss for words. I'll be praying for you and the rest of your family. Hugs.

Johanna said...

Dani, You are all in my thoughts. I am so sorry for your loss. My deepest condolences to you all.

Kim {Yep, they are all mine} said...

Fuck Cancer.

I'm sorry it crept into your family the way it did. You know I love you and y'all have been in my thoughts. xoxo

Heather said...

So sorry for your loss. Prayers to you and your family.

Run Lori Run said...

Oh, Dani. So, so sorry. Sending peace and love your way.

Liesl said...

So sorry for your loss, Dani.

Tammie said...

miss you and thinking of you.

pakosta said...

so very sorry for your loss....I am sure she must have known how much she was loved by you all. I am sure of it!
tara

Allison said...

Dani- I read this before but didn't have any words. I still don't. But I wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and your family and sending kind thoughts your way. xo Allison

Nicolle said...

Hi Dani, just wanted to stop by and say hi and I hope you all have a good Thanksgiving. I know it's going to be a tough one with your loss, but I pray for peace and love and some smiles throughout the holidays this year.

xoxo,
nicolle

MACMD said...

I just found your blog through Yep they are all mine. I am sorry to hear of your loss and had to comment because the similarity of our stories.

I too, lost my mother in law in January of this year from pancreatic cancer, after an almost year long battle. It is a horrible disease and a horrible way to watch someone you love pass away.

My mother in law sounds much like yours: she accepted me just the way I was, even though we were as different as night and day.

I am thankful that the progression of her disease provided me with the opportunity to tell her how much I loved her and appreciated her and to thank her for the wonderful gift of her son.

My heart goes out to you and your family.